The mill grinds on...

It's been a while...and a while is a hell of a long time in education.

I am questioning my position and my existence. The question is, do I want the hassle? If the answer were so simple I'd sell it and retire. So what hassle is that then? Well, lets go back a little...

Now it seems that the Department Manager has left, leaving a bit of a gap. He got another job apparently. So I step up for a position that temporarily shares the job. The only downside is that I am still teaching full time (in fact I have just finished a stint covering for someone as well). How, when teaching full time, I can run a department I am not sure. Certainly my counterpart does not teach therefore has a huge advantage.

Also, we have a new head of centre. This in some respects is very good as the person is very affable and obviously intelligent. The downside is still that we hear the same old management patter all the time.

It's all rather disheartening and to be honest although I should be celebrating the faith put in me by the college, I can't help but feel very very down at the moment.